The Defiance novel

---- Chapter 10: Giving or Giving up Part 2 Seth's POV I once promised to the High Heavens that I will kill anyone who will dare make her cry. I will not be kind as to let them feel pain. I want them to taste it and hear it from their own mouth... I will kill anyone for her. Maybe that's the reason why I've lived my life for years without her like a living dead. Waking up in the morning and asking people to beat the shit out of me every now and then.

I cried in pain but later on 1 learned to enjoy it and it was not what I wanted so 1 started torturing myself with how low I had become. I hurt the only love I had. 1 tortured myself with her pictures of smiling face, of her meeting people and being happy without me. I personally covered my walls with her photos just to remind me that I once broke her. I asked Dean to tell me how happy she is and how she's moving on with her life forgetting about me.

He constantly reminded me how undeserving I was of her. How worthless I was. "Please, tell me what's wrong?", I was not sure why I sounded like a croaking bastard swallowing up nails. Everyone had gone to their own work but I did not let her out of this room without knowing what had caused those sad eyes. Fuck!!! ---- "Nothing...", her breathless response clicked my jaw but I held her just as gentle as I could. "Come on, now n We both know that's not true.

Tell me" She sniffed, took a deep breathe and pushed away from me an arms length. "Nothing. I just had a lot on my mind lately. It's really nothing" I stared at her blankly and had this urge to force it out in her. Whatever it was but I knew better. If I did, she would just slip away farther and I needed to keep her where my eyes can reach her. Stepping back, I allowed her enough room to breath properly, watching her fix herself. I fisted my hand restraining myself from touching her again.

I wanted to comfort her. I've wanted it so bad that the only thing I could resort to was to take in her pained appearance. "Was someone bothering you? Or feel you threatened? " Through her teary eyes, she laughed. My forehead creased at the sound of her laughter. "What's funny?" "T'm sorry. I mean... nothing. Don't mind me. Like I said there's just a lot on my mind right now.

It's nothing special", her eyes roamed all over me which ---- made me smile inwardly and it widened when her sight stayed on my chest. "T promise you, sweetheart, I'd love to let you stare at me for the rest of the day but I'm afraid that you'll find yourself staring not on my clothes anymore but what it covers if you continue... which I'd be very much willing to comply with", I winked at her and her eyes roll. Gone was the woman crumbling down in front of me.

I felt relieved seeing her usual self but then a side of me wanted to see her weak an vulnerable. I've wanted her weak so she could rely on me. "T don't have any intention of seeing you naked and I am more of not interested in anything about you" "Ouch! You really wounded me there, sweetie", my hand slapped my chest to create a dramatic emphasis on the hurt from her words. She tried to hide the smile forming on her sexy lips but I knew better .

It warmed my heart to know she was finally smiling again and I've wanted to assume that she was starting to get comfortable on me. Looking into my eyes with the sincerity I've always loved, she sighed deeply and said, "I.. Sorry, it seems that I ruined your coat, Sir" my shoulders slumped in quite a defeat. "So we're back at that", I lowly voiced out.