The Defiance novel

---- did. "Call Greg, ask him to clean this mess later", they talked. I was guessing they climbed up the stairs and everything went silent again. I went back to where I was earlier, the door was opened wider. "seth" "Don't fucking call me that name", he seemed angry. "You can't be like that now. Remember ..." -but he cut his companion. "T remember all of it and that's the problem", I bit my lip at his growing annoyance. "What happened?", the man asked.

"T told her" "Told her what?" "That I fell out of love", it was a whisper but I could barely hear it. Everything was too silent soI could catch their words. "why?" "Because" "Tam asking you why" "Just because" "Ts it the truth?" ,the man's probing picked my ---- interest. When he told me that he fell out of love, I broke. I felt worthless. 'Just tell her the truth, man. Nothing's gonna happen if you're not going to tell her your story" What truth? What more he could tell me?

"She'll never understand . She would be hurt again. Because of me again" Did he think I was not hurting now? "She's hurting now. What's the difference?" I internally laughed at the man's thoughts. He was so right. "He's dead", Maxx stated, "Seth's dead". Those words rang in my head like an ending alarm. I covered my mouth with both of my hands and cried harder. I was too weak. I couldn't do anything but cry and cry some more. Seth's dead. Seth's dead. It rang on my head. He's dead. Seth's dead.

---- And I knew. Yes. All this time I knew he's dead. "Sev", his name was like a knife in my being cutting me and my past wounds fresh. His name alone opened my scars. Icried harder. All this time I knew. I knew about his twin brother. They thought I didn't notice but I did and at the end, Seth told me the truth. He sent me his last letter. He called me for the last time. I knew it all along that this man was not Seth. He was his twin Sev. I know. And this man was the one I loved all along.

And it was the painful love until now. And I was weak.