---- Already Chosen One thing Sam also realized was that the other seemed to have developed some sort of crush on him. It was hard not to notice how she would blush when she got caught staring, or the way her breath seemed a little bit erratic whenever they had their bodies pressed together on the small sofa in the recreation room, or even her habit of always sharing Sam's cigarettes instead of simply asking for one.
Despite his careless vibe, Sam was far from dense; actually , silent people are usually born observers who can take notice of the smallest details regarding their surroundings as well as easily see right through people. Up to this day, this ability hasn't really done anything for him other than provide a front-row view of the ugliness of this world and its people, which made life itself seem rather unappealing to him, despite all his efforts to enjoy it like a guy his age was supposed to.
Nonetheless , now that he had taken an interest in anyone other than himself, it finally started to feel more like a blessing in disguise, considering he could see all the beauty and sincerity inside Sam's restless eyes. Needless to say, Sam's little crush was not one-sided. Not at all. "Have you ever been in love? Sam asks, head cocked.
His eyes danced across Monika , who was too caught up in her own thoughts to realize the other had ---- basically snuggled up to her at some point, warm puffs of breath fanning her cheek as he spoke from that close distance. Monika glanced at him from the corner of her eyes, not daring to turn her head upon realizing how little space was separating their faces. " It's okay if you don't want to answer.
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I mean, I know you are a reserved person, and yet I'm being nosy and shit, he says, shaking his head dismissively. "It's okay. I don't mind. It's just been a while. She confesses, and this time her eyes inadvertently roam over the boy in her peripheral vision. "Not really, if I'm being completely honest. I mean, isn't love such a subjective feeling?
She ponders as she shakes her head, quick but not rushed to respond: "I guess despite all those ideals that are constantly shoved down people's throats, love doesn't really havea description, y'know? It just feels different for everyone , and it's hard to tell feelings apart, don't you think? She asks and tips her head, touching her tongue to the roof of her mouth as she parts her lips ever so slightly.
As usual, her way with words and how she always turns everything into a puzzle amaze Sam, and she feels herself slipping even further into that helpless state of pure bliss and admiration. "Thaven't really stopped to think this far about any of this, if I'm being honest," he replies, his voice lowering.
He bites tentatively at the right side of his lip, tries to replace the subtle pain of that with how actively he feels the warmth of Monika's body ---- resonating through her own, and can't help but sigh with his whole chest. "You..." he starts, shaking his head in disbelief. "God, you're so annoying. such an annoying, fucking low-key genius who always knows what to say.
He spat out suddenly, blinking away from the sight of a very confused Monika, who's now fully looking at him as if he's grown two heads. "It annoys me, Monika. Fucking annoys me, because..." he trailed off, staring down at his hands to try and ground himself. I keep falling so damn hard for you every time you open your mouth, and it makes me feel completely pathetic. There, I said it!
He exploded, literally throwing hands, and proceeded to sigh heavily while looking up at the dim city lights that expanded way beyond his sight. Monika just remained silent and composed beside him, a hint of a smile adorning the corner of her lips as he observed the girl's conflicted expression. That was probably the first time he'd heard the other vomiting that many words at once, and amusingly , it seemed like he was far from finished . "I'm sorry, okay? I fell for you. I couldn't help it.
I know you are not interested in me like that. We are just friends; it was never supposed to turn out that weird, but of course I just had to screw everything up. I don't even expect you to explain yourself; I mean, who would ever be interested in me like that, anyway? I'm ugly, dumb, and childish- literally so out of your league that I should have never even mentioned any of this in the first place. So, like, if you don't want to talk to me or see me ever again,
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