Alpha’s Badass Mate novel

---- Do you still remember the night in the auditorium ? Remember when things were new? How did we both cry because everything we felt was too much? Did you know then that our time together was quickly counting down? That you would run away and never come back? Is that why you pulled away? I decided your feelings were your problem and not mine. I never thought that I was willing to carry that burden with you. Because it 'was you. It was always you. And for you, I would have done anything.

If you did know, why couldn't you have rejected me then? Pushed me away again? Run away? Anything would have been better than being fed false hope. I hope for a future filled with our forever. Promises of your return. Of how much you loved me. All of it means nothing in the end. In the end, your forever had an end date, and now mine does too. My forever has to end so that I can move forward. Maybe someday you'll remember me, and I hope that it can make you smile.

I only ever wished the best for you. I wanted to give you the love you deserved. I proudly called you mine, and I will do my best to not regret our time together. I hope your new mate can make you happy. I hope your future child grows up to be as kind and generous as you once were. I wish you could have stayed with ---- me, but I never want you to be unhappy, and if I make you unhappy, then I can accept that and walk away. I can't look back now. I am still too weak.

Still too in love with the thought of us. Of the promises and the forever's. But my feelings are my responsibility. I will take care of them and not burden you with them. Sorry doesn't feel like enough to convey how much regret I carry for not being enough for you. For not seeing my failings and trying to become better. I guess in the end, I will always not be the best choice for you. I can live with that, I guess; I have all my life.

It hurt less knowing I was nothing to you; now the pain runs too deep, too indescribable. So, for now, I have to end all that. All that could have been I have to for my own well-being. I have to let you go, and I have to forget the promises. I have to move forward alone, truly alone, for the first time in my life. I know it won't be easy, but I cannot stay here. I cannot live in thes hadow of yours forever. I promise you, I'll get better. I promise you, I'll move on.

I promise that my forever has come to an end. Monika is staring towards the sky. It's been 4 years since she tried to move on, since she tried to start a new life. But she can't; she can't move on from her ---- mate. How can anyone move on from their own soulmate ? It's impossible!