Alpha’s Badass Mate novel

---- isn't part of his future? What if she got over him? What if she realized Sam wasn't good enough to sacrifice so much for? It can't be true, not when he remembers his mate's eyes, words, hugs, and kisses. But he could just be deceiving himself, because everything can turn out a lot different than it first seemed. Once, he could have lived without her.

Before he knew what it was like to be cared for by her, Before he knew the wonder , ecstatic joy, and bliss of being loved by her, he knew how all-encompassing and bone-deep it was. Now, he knows, and she will never unknow it or find it in anyone else. She gave up the thought long ago. There's no chance of going back. It's his Monika; it has to be Monika; it will be Monika. He has to believe it, stay strong, and never give up hope. His fear comes true, of course.

Who else, if not his dream, would know? He's breathing fresh air, yet he feels like drowning. There's only one choice. Become worthy. It's the only thing keeping him on his feet. The only thing able to push past the chokehold More years. Even after endless years, he has to wait, keep going, and work himself into the ground. ---- But he can't give in. Not when he's reminded of his mate every single day.

His smiles , laughter , anger , and joy The magic of kissing her Touching, tasting , and feeling her. Sam might as well perish if he can never have that again. Prevail, fight on, and don't give up. Become good enough. There must be a way. One day, when he stands before him and can explain One day.

He stares at the ceiling, unseeing, covering his taut, stinging chest with his palm, his heartbeat vibrating under his skin, a pounding uproar, trying to calm the tight, sore, helpless apprehension of when that day comes. when it won't come. What if it does? What if it doesn't? And then she dies, but it's not his fault, Monika. But he still accused her. Why? Why did he do this to his own mate?