Alpha’s Badass Mate novel

---- mate to be happy, but he's also the reason Monika cries so many times. Sam reaches out to take Monika in his arms and sways them lightly in a consoling manner. The other continues, "I want our last days together to be somewhere I can go back to." He can't help but tear up, and he presses his cheek against Monika. It's as wet as his.

"T don't care if we break my bed or whatever." "You're going to have to throw it out if we break it." "T can always have it fixed." Sam would rather Monika sleep on the broken bed every night and remember Sam in her dreams. He'd rather have his wicked ways with Monika on every available surface in Win penthouse so that Monika is reminded of him every minute of the day. So that Monika will long for him as much as he will inevitably long for Monika.

Sam really can't believe this; after his brother , he is doing the same thing with his mate. He is making Monika cry, but he is not like his brother. He will not let Monika go; he will take Monika with him to his first concert. He loves Monika, but he is also cruel. He's made Monika cry after all. And he will continue to make Monika cry more, whether he wants to or not.

---- However, instead of saying all of that, he teases, "And give your household staff more things to gossip about?" Monika snorts; it's less wet now. "I don't care; they can even tell my brother or uncle if they want." Sam laughs at that, mouth open against Monika's neck.

Monika sighs tiredly and goes on, "I just want to have you for however long I can before you leave and have you with me for however long I can after you leave." Sam exhales shakily, "I'm sorry." "Don't be," Monika sniffles, her hands fisting the back of Sam's shirt tightly. "We all have our own separate lives, and I get that." Sam lets out a ragged gasp at the statement.

"And I knew, but I just-I'm going to miss you so much, that's all." "T don't want our lives to be so separated." "Me neither , but it is what it is," Monika mumbles before pulling back and wiping her tears away. She reaches up to wipe Sam's tears away too, and Sam takes a hold of her wrist. There are ways to keep our lives together, though, Sam thinks desperately , grasping onto straws , and presses an open-mouth kiss on Monika's palm. ---- Monika leans in to give him a peck before withdrawing.

"We really should start packing now if we want to leave before nightfall." "Yes, yes," Sam agrees, "anything for you, my darling. " Monika turns to squint at him in warning ; her eyes are red-rimmed and watery, and, in thed im light that makes Monika's eyes sparkle like diamonds , Sam thinks again: there are ways to keep their lives together. And Sam did it; he took Monika to his first concert , and they were actually happy.